Sunday, October 28, 2007
i'm wanting to be wanted
wanting to be worth it
worth the trouble
worth fighting for
wanting to be desired
wanting to be needed
wanting my good to outweigh the bad
wanting for something to happen
anything
wanting to stop feeling
stop being confused all the time
stop this one step forward two steps back thing
wanting to give up hoping
because all it ends up in is pain
i can't decide who's the bigger idiot
you for your empty touch and mixed signals
or me for knowing yet falling for them anyway
i keep telling myself i've shed my last tear for you
and then that bloody stupid smile of yours
and that memory
i want to be over you
to stop handing you my heart on a platter
and spending an eternity
suspended in breathless heightened agony
while you tried to make up your mind
while i bled to death waiting
and waiting
and wanting while waiting
how did i come undone?
3:23 am
alone* in the rain;