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Tuesday, April 03, 2007

hmm...i realised i hadn't updated in months...months!! i'm really bad at...what's the word...um..well...i'm very bad at carrying things through. i get distracted easily. so i love initiating projects and i get lot of ideas, but i tend to not actually do them. maybe it's lack of organisation... =p

but anyway...life's been interesting. everyone is getting engaged/married.

seriously.

it's kind of scary. for someone who's never had a boyfriend before, having all my friends getting married is kind of sad. it's kind of like...well...what's wrong with me. but then again, i'm fine being single. and i'm ecstatic for my friends, because we've always talked about it and that sort of thing (well mostly bec and i) i'm so glad that i get to be a bridesmaid for bec, because otherwise i probably wouldnt be. because even though i'm close to quite a few girls, i'm not anyone's best friend except for bec. so it's really cool being able to have that experience.

so tim and hannah are married, jeremy and mandy in sept, mingdao and claire in dec, bec and pete were supposed to be in nov but then they had to postphone it. another friend becky is also getting married. and mich talks about all these couples in ES as well. *love is in the air* as long as i get to help i'm happy. i wouldn't want to be in a relationship because i wanted to be IN a relationship. so i'm willing to wait for the right guy to come along, and to ask me. i'm pretty easy like that, where i'll angst about it for a while, or now and then when i'm in a depressed mood, but then i get over it and leave it to God. the whole whatever will be, will be thing. it's almost like living in the moment, making the best of what you have at that point in time, rather than wasting it worrying or getting depressed about life not being the way you want it. you end up wasting life. which is a real pity.

so romantic life aside, uni is going good. getting to know some uni people pretty well, due mainly to prac times. especially human dissection. it is disturbingly fun cutting up bodies. it's so fascinating! looking at variations,where you realise normal is...well, essentially that nothing is normal. okay, that's exaggerating, but it's completely normal to have huge variations. it's insane. and our woman, who kate named Beatrice, is so so strange. so many variations. it's crazy. and our whole group just works really well together. i generally have no idea what i'm doing, but i always manage to find the important things, like the sympathetic trunk or something. and then i ask matt, and he generally knows what it is. brent loves cleaning, and we just have lots of laughs. although i generally like staying back since the formaldehyde always gets in my eyes and nose. IT BURNS!!! but then i also love 'getting in there' and finding everything. craziness!!i also just realised today, that i effectively have two weeks of holidays, since the week after easter hols is 3rd yr teaching free week. so i don't have classes till my fieldtrip on the wkend. it's awesome!! muahaha!

been working as a tutor, have four students outside, and PASS (uni) tutoring for two hours. so i'm earning quite a bit. only problem with tutoring is that i don't get paid in the holidays. oh well...i don't mind too much. it's still nice earning my own money.

i've been trying to organise my 21st too. i have it all planned in my head. sort of. and now it's getting it all actually done, which as i've mentioned, i'm not very good at. but it'll all work out in the end. it always does.

12:36 am
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