alone*

Saturday, October 28, 2006

hmmm......I seem to be posting more poems than actual blog entries...shmeh! Since some friends mention (complain) I don't update often, I figured poems were a good way of vaguely sharing my state of mind at that time without me having to write out what's going on, since they were going to get written anyway. Problem being of course, than a lot of my poems are the extreme of what I'm feeling =p, so they aren't actually all that accurate. Plus some of them were written for friends, or about friends. Some of them are even just the topics themselves that I felt inspired somehow to write. I'm sure that all those famous poets weren't in love all the time they were writting that stuff. So now that I'm bothering to actually write what's been happening in my life, it might be quite long =P or not...quite boring really, my life. but anyways, on with the story...

uni is over!!! Well...classes are over, still got exams, but no more assignments! Handed in the last three today. Wanting to study but being so sick of working is annoying...but I have been really busy these past few weeks. aside from copious assignments, I've been tutoring a gr 8 boy in maths and ...well..everything he needs help with really. and i've just gotten a new tutoring job tutoring a gr 10 girl in maths and chem (i've forgotten so much, really have to read on it again)

(you know, now that I think about it, I suppose I do have quite a bit to talk about, but only if I said everything, based on the assumption that people actually want to know everything. I think that's part of my problem with conversing with people and coming up blank. I don't think they would want to know about the insignificant things, or what I consider insignificant things. is that good or bad I wonder...)

I have an interview tomorrow(although I already have the job. it's just to familiarise myself with the procedure that this company has) for the tutoring company that got me the second tutoring job, the first being a recommendation from a friend (her mother's friend's friend's son or something to that effect). and I recently also had an interview for tutoring classes for 1st yr subjects in uni. so with any luck, I'll be getting some money next yr from all this tutoring so I dont need a job. I'll be so bored in the holidays though...here's hoping one of the places I applied to will hire someone with no experience at my age. if not I can always go to disneyland.

went to melb during the wkend to see my cousin Fiona's 7 week old baby Anton before they flew back to new york. and see my mummy and sister and friends in the process of course! he's so cute! like a little froggy with a monkey face! CUTENESS!! and I also got to play with Marlowe (4yo) and Musetta (2yo) who are cousin Amy's girls. So sweet!! and somehow I got Musetta to give me this grin everytime I looked at her or something, which was quite an achievement since she's quite shy. I also met tng and liwei and jon and went to st jude's(sister's church) and went OP shopping!!!! and now I have a nice not-so-new pair of jeans (which are a bit big but I figured $5 was pretty cheap =p), warm fuzzy white pullover (which I unfortunately have to wait till winter to wear) and a cool top which my sister didn't entirely approve of. but then again she's started wearing sleeveless tops. *expectant pause for gasps of shock and horror* yes...VAL in SLEEVELESS tops, by choice too! she finally saw the practical side of them....since it's just too hot in summer to wear anything else =p so there you have it. my subtle fashion conversion for my sister is working!!! all the way from brisbane!!! muahaha!!! ehem..right...moving on

um...I think i've run out of things to say...no wait

my garden...or lack of it, sadly. the previous owner of my townhouse didn't care too much for taking care of plants. so the hedges are a mess and tall and the weeds are taking over. like seriously, they're all over and I spent most of the afternoon trying to yank them out of the ground. friend aniesha said that as long as you find their roots and pull them out they'll die. not so easy when the entire bed of soil is infested with them. after a lackluster attempt at trimming the hedge, I decided I would plant my poor plants in pots first, and hire a gardener to just clear out the whole thing, and I can start from scratch. except that will probably cost a lot of money and a lot of time, during which spring will be over and my plants might die. as it is..I think I do not have a green thumb. or I have half of one. some of my plants are doing fine, some seeds didn't even grow, some that were doing fine suddenly died. I actually think the sun is too hot for most of them. I never realised leaves could get burned. seriously...they were brown, despite the water I gave them...and the seedlings that were doing fine died when I shifted them to an area where I thought they'd get more sun. even the aloe vera (hello...desert plant? would've thought it would like the sun) is turning brown. and I know it's the sun cos the bottom of the leaves are fine on it but not the top. so there! not my fault. how annoying...not sure what to do. ahwell... plus i think jonny's majorly screwed up my shears...

and there's my long update, with a lot of bracketed points, as I realised about halfway through. =p as long as it's legible.

and it's late/early, so spelling and punctuation and grammer are horrendous. my excuse =p so that's all for now until exams and spring ball.

1:08 am
alone* in the rain;

Thursday, October 19, 2006

He waved, and I smiled. He waved, and my heart leapt. No words came, just plain unadulterated shock and surprise. I think I was on a high for the rest of the day. Just...wow... All because he waved.

3:49 am
alone* in the rain;